Ups and downs

Wow, I have gone through some serious ups and downs lately. I think last time I wrote, I was sooooo pissed off at the wife that I was ready for divorce. I didn't know what to do. Well, I fought through all that crap and here I am in my new house. I moved into my new house that I bought, I found out that I made my next rank in the Air Force and my birthday is today. Happy birthday to me. I also got a suprising call from my ex-girlfriend, now friend from a long time ago. It was very nice to hear her voice. I'll have to tell you more on that later. Well, the wife started working again on her videos/cams...so that gave me some time to come down to my finished basement and type this and do other things. The kids are down here kinda driving me nuts...but thats ok. Well, I gotta go now....more later

Not an hour later

It hasn't been an hour since I wrote last time and my life hasn't improved anywhere. The deal is going exactly how I visioned it. Now I'm being drilled on writing in this blog because I don't share my thoughts. I am accused again of just going to my computer as soon as I get home...which for the both of us, when we are away from home for a while we first come home and check our email. That is what I did. I came home and checked my email, then we ate and right after, she told me she had to spend time alone. So she went into the bedroom to be alone. Kyle was very tired today and didn't take a nap so I put him to bed. After about 30 minutes, I went into the room and it started again with her being upset at me because I checked my email. Then I came in the family room to write in my blog this statement and again I'm wrong because I'm writing in this blog instead of talking to her about my thoughts....will this ever end???

The deal

So, I finally went to marriage counseling today and talked about my issues with my marriage. I made a deal with my therapist that I would record things that happen. I also told her that I would stop looking at porn for the week at least. I told her that would not solve our problem but ok, I will try.
So here it is 1748, only 1 hour since I have been home for the day and the arguments already started. I am sitting here reading my email and looking at myspace. She starts questioning me on why she isnt part of my friends. She knows that everytime she is, she drills me and condemns me for everything on my page. So I took her off of it. She then notice that I got a myspace comment from Tuff. So she starts asking what did she write. I get soooo tired of that. There is nothing that I can do with out her drilling me on why am i doing it or what did she write and 50 million other questions she asks me. Can't I do anything for myself. So we start arguing again because of this, which has nothing to do with porn. Right now, I have a head ache and i'm frustrated because this will never end. I feel hopeless.

Its not a good day

Well, lets see....for the past couple days, I had my mother here to visit us. I think its always good for mom to come visit and see her grand kids.. Malik is really getting use to grandma and Mikhail, he will follow what big brother does. Its sooo cute. Anyway, the visit itself was great. But, me and the wife had counseling - marriage during this time and that was the crappy part. The wife decided to bring up Tuff. Tuff use to be my niece from my ex-wife. She is a very beautiful girl. Tuff and I would talk sometimes about everything. Well, the wife does not like Tuff or any other girl that I am talking to. So, it has caused a lot of problems. Anyway, that is not going to stop me from having friends. So, me and the wife are still fighting over Tuff. Today is one of those days.

On the good note: I am going to Vegas tomorrow. Suppose to go with the family, but with the wife in her mood, who knows. Well...gotta go...

Oh what a beautiful day

Well, today is Saturday and the weather here in Colorado Springs is soooo beautiful. Its sunny outsite, i just got finished steam cleaning the carpet in the house. Later on, I'll cut the grass. Im preparing to move into my new house next month. We close on my new house on the 11th of June. Its the house that I wanted. I guess I can go into the long story a bit. There were 2 houses that me and my wife liked. I liked one house more than the other, and my wife liked the other house more than the other. But we both agreed that whichever house we got, we would be happy. Well, after all the negotiations, we got the house that I wanted the most....I'm sooo happy. Anyway, so things are going quite well for me. My mom comes into town on Wednesday and stays to the 17th and then Im leaving to Vegas to her house on the 19th for vacation. I can't wait. Anyway, thats all I gotta say for now. Everyone take care!! Love ya lots!

Rocket

ahhh I'm frustrated

Well, I found out last night that my business website has a serious problem. Customers cannot follow through on an order. I've been working all day and night trying to fix the problem but cannot. Oh, I don't know what to do. If anyone is using Zen Cart and know about my problem, just reply...I would be sooooo greatfull. Anyway, nuff of those problems. I was soo happy today to have an old friend join my friends list on myspace. Its been a while since I've seen her. Anyway, it was nice. Today, I'm so horny but the wife has Johnny home right now...so I guess I will have to wait till tomorrow. Anyway yal'lll take care

Rocket

The beginning

I guess its been a long time that I should have started my own blog, but since I've migrated over to google, this will be the beginning of my writings. Well, first I can just say whats going on currently in my life..Well, I'm currently looking for my first home to buy and I believe we have found the house I'm going to live in for quite a while. Later, I will tell you all about my life, but this is what I'd like to start with today....